In 1981 the Lord Jesus Christ (Yeshua ha Mashaich) appeared to me and spoke to me. His heart of love and the holiness of His presence completely changed my life. Over the years it has been a common occurrence for the Lord to just "show up" in a cloud of glory and speak to me in this personal way. Time and time again, the holiness of His presence has consumed me. It has been the desire of my heart for others...to experience Him in the same way that I have...in this very personal and tangible way.
The Lord began to teach me how Revelatory Worship can bring His tangible, holy presence. I would spend hours just worshiping Him, often laid out prostrate on the floor and unable to move under the weight of His glorious presence. In those times, the Lord healed my heart of past wounds, set me free from mental and emotional bondage and most of all...taught me how worship can bring His tangible presence. I learned firsthand that when Jesus shows up…He meets our every need. He became my "Wonderful Counselor, My Prince of Peace and My Most Precious and Beloved Bridegroom."
One cannot experience the holiness of God's presence...and walk away
unchanged. It is being transformed into His image that we are called.
I began singing when I was very young, studied music and voice in college then became involved in the music ministry in a local fellowship in 1982. I spent many years as a worship leader, theater arts director, dance ministry director and became involved in various choirs and Christian bands. It was during the times of leading worship that I began to feel the Lord's heart. I wish I could tell you that it was joy that I felt from Him, but most often it was grief and sadness. Why? Because worship would stop prematurely. We had invited Him to come, we had called out to Him to reveal His presence, but time and time again His Spirit would be hindered and quenched. We would end worship before He was able to reveal Himself in they way that He desired. I cannot express to you in words, how very much it grieved His heart.
He revealed to me that we were never asking Him...what pleased Him in worship. We put together our song lists, assuming our worship pleased Him.
This my friends is sheer foolishness. Who are we to know God in His holiness?
For close to 40 years I have sat beside the Lord in the secret place, this precious place of intercession hearing the very desire and secrets of His heart. I have had the blessing of seeing as He sees and feeling firsthand His heart's longing for His people. I have felt His joy, and have also felt the pain of His heart in grievous intercession and have wept alongside Him for His people to know Him in a much deeper measure. How He longs for His people to truly seek Him with all of their being, to really know Him as their beloved bridegroom. How He longs for us to let go of everything in this life that distracts us from seeking to "know" Him, and loving Him with our whole heart. It is into this first love relationship, that He is calling all of us. By knowing Him in this personal, intimate way, we learn to hear His voice more clearly and accurately.
We are living in the days of Ezekiel 34 where the Lord is replacing leaders
in His church. He is replacing the current Levite "man centered ministry to the people", with Zadok Priests that have an uncompromising spirit that know how to minister to the Lord in holiness, virtue, piety and the fear of the Lord.
I have felt His jealous anger and how His heart becomes grieved in church and worship services when His spirit is not allowed to freely move and minister to His people. He wants so much to pour out His presence among us, but we must seek Him to bring us understanding and knowledge to see worship through "His eyes". We must understand His holiness. He is waiting for us to ask Him for His desires, to ask Him what it is that pleases Him.
We must ask Him to teach us "how" to worship (not only in spirit), but honor His desires and seek how to please Him, for seeking to understand what
pleases Him in worship, this, becomes worship "in truth". John 4:24
The bride that Jesus is seeking...is a bride that lives to please her bridegroom and is doing all that is necessary to make herself ready for Him. How does the Lord reveal His pleasure? By showing up in all of His splendor and majesty. He longs to pour out His pleasure upon His people. The God of Heaven, The Creator, The King in all His glory and splendor is seeking such to worship Him...and make His habitation "in and among" us. He is searching for those who truly want Him more than anything else. The trumpet is sounding...the Lord is calling those who will raise the standard to prepare the way for His coming. Jesus wants to reveal Himself.
When He shows up in the beauty of His holiness, and we become completely "undone" in His presence, we realize that "He alone" is the revival we are seeking!
We cannot look back or look to others for keys for reformation, we must look to the Lord and ask Him to teach us what brings pleasure to Him. We must seek Him regarding what brings delight to His heart and attracts His presence. Then as He begins to teach us, we must continue to follow His lead. I cannot tell how crucial this is. Seeking His heart is the answer and obedience is the key! We must learn from Him what is holy and also what quenches or hinders the moving of His Spirit. Far too many are looking back to past revivals, reading books and seeking others before seeking the Lord Himself. This must stop!
The Lord requires us to come to Him to inquire and understand His heart. He will not share the secrets of His heart with those who stand at a distance.
He shares the secrets of His heart, ONLY with His bride.
He deserves perfect praise. He is worthy to receive perfect worship in the "Beauty of Holiness." I live to bring Him the worship that is due His name. As we allow the very image of Christ to become manifest in and through each one us, and we become obedient to His desire for change in this hour, we will see His Kingdom established as He has spoken, and His glory fill the nations as He promised. The call on my life in ministry is to assist Christian leaders bring about the shift and change that the Lord desires into current day church. He is calling leaders back to their first love relationship with Him. Our first love relationship with the Lord is the very foundation that our walk with Christ is built upon. Without it, we will never be able to lead others into maturity to attain the very image and likeness of Christ.
Blessings and Shalom,
Zadok Assayer & Minister of Worship
aka: Cynthia M. Dexter
Zanild bat Tsadak ha Kohein (Zanild daughter of Zadok of Aaron)
Nickname: Dance Warrior
The raw Truth of GOD is rare in our day. And so, it is refreshing to read your posts & acknowledge the stand for Truth you've taken. Be steadfast for behold HE Comes.
Excellence Uso, Nigeria 2017
"But the priests the Levites, the sons of Zadok...they shall come near to me to minister unto me...they shall teach my people the difference between the holy and the common, and cause them to discern between the unclean and the clean."
Ezek. 44:15, 23